13/7/2011 崩溃的空间

啊！啊！啊！

快要崩溃了，你在干嘛？

我该做什么？

不能生气，因为你没错，好~

不能发泄，因为不应该找你~

不能哭，因为男生不应该哭~

但是我有错嘛？

男女朋友，不是应该可以能给对方一个让对方感到你的存在吗？

如果不能见面，发短信会很麻烦吗？

为什么别人做到的你做不到？

为什么我做什么都是没想到你？

为什么我做的只是顾着我自己？

为什么我是白痴？

为什么我不知道你要什么？

为什么我不能做到你要的？

为什么我给不到你希望的？

我什么都不知道，是第一天的事吗？但这成了我一直错的原因

我真的真的很想知道，你知道我些什么？

为什么我做的是措，你说的是对？

我错我应该改，你没有错？

真的只有我在胡说八道吗？

你有没有想过，为什么我会说这些？

有没有想过，为什么你做不到我要的？

难道真的是我要的，是我多来要的嘛？别人都没有要这些而我要？

我真的是错到这么沟里吗？

这个时候很想死，不要问我为什么，只需要跟我说，你要什么？我该怎么做才可以行？

对不起，我爱你~

13/7/2011

morning everyone, luckily i din wake up late today? 'haha'

today wil be a good day i think, but im tired..>.<.. feel emo today..

dont u feel something not in mood? no right? everything i s just nice.. but i dunno wat happen to me. i feel shit la... the way to end something should be nice, if it is in a bad way, how to cover the sadness of ending something? no one can accept a bad ending, although not everything is good, but actually it is depend on urself.. u can make it, dont say it is no in ur ability.. from a baby to adult, we r keep changing and learning, we keep changing ourself, dont u do that? we all r doing the same thing actually, so i dont like something also mean that myself haven change yet.. i apologize for it, i wil try but dont say i cant.. sien day~

13/7/2011

Everyone got their needs, so do me. I'm a human, got heart got feeling just same as you~ if bottle fulfill with water until full, for sure it will come out. It is sure will out from somewhere to make it correct. going to burst!

10/7/2011

Believe me, wat i say is correct~ i worry about something i dunno wat is that, mayb bcau i dun h the confidence for the world... this world are full of evil and monster, i dunno when they wil hurt u, wat i can do now is just remind u, always tell u, Must!!! take care urself... this world is no longer a good and peace world that we know few year ago~ dun get hurt, nomatter by urself or other ppls.. i wil get 100% times hurt compare to the hurt on u~ seriously im very very care until u may think im too over, but that is true heart~ something really inside my heart, and i knw u know it as well.. so pls let me know u r safe~

24/6/2011

This the day i feel i going to sick but somehow i dunno what happening when the earth keep spinning.

Regret! i must admit that i had make a wrong decision that drive me into an uncomfortable situation.

I cant escape, i cant give up, but at the same time i cant do it. The only thing is shorten my life and do it.

Seriously my mood are not good at all, mood is belong to myself, no one are there willing to help me as well.

My body getting weak, i feel it in this few days, but the situation now should be rushing but not rest.

I believe i can over come this situation in the future but can doesn't mean i don't affair, i'm affair, affair that i cant.

If can, i will choice to go another way, because this is not my way, my style, i don't has the spirit the soul to do it.

Decision making is most important, once u make wrong decision, you may get in trouble and same time u cant escape.

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我讨厌我自己很弱，很没用！！！！！

很不坚强！很没有主见！很垃圾！

天天被人欺负！被人按着！整个废材那样！

醒来咯！白痴！！！你是男的！不是女的！

娘娘娘！！！你再娘，你再哭，你就去死吧！不死也没用！！！！！

就在这里

雷茶饭和奶茶做早餐~ 好好

tesco! 我拍照时被保安人员……她说在这里不可以拍照~ 真是鱼，哈哈~